Gratitude:UnFiltered X "The Testimony of Andy Smith" by Joshua T Berglan
Word of God Church presents Gratitude:UnFiltered X
"The Testimony of Andy Smith"
"I AM A ALCOHOLIC! I HAVE BEEN DRINKING SINCE THE AGE OF 12. I COME FROM ALONG LINE OF ADDICTS AND MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES IN MY FAMILY! I HAVE HAD FOUR DESATURIOUS MARRIAGES AND 5 CHILDREN 4 GIRLS AND 1 BOY! I HAVENT BEEN THEIR FOR THEM LIKE I HAVE SHOULD' VE BEEN!
I HAVE ALWAYS LIVED BY A CODE AND THAT CODE I BELIEVE WAS TAUGHT TO ME BY MY PA ! HE DIED WHEN I WAS 17 AND WAS A ACHOLIC ! I LOST EVERYTHING THAT DAY HE DIED , I STARTED DRINKING DAILY AND GOING TO JAIL AND MANY REHABS MY PA FOUND OUT I WAS A ALCOHOLIC WHEN I WENT TO TREATMENT IN;1994 AND WROTE ME A LETTER TELLING ME WHAT A GREAT PERSON I WAS AND HOW I COULD CONQUER THIS!
I FOUND OUT THAT LATER HE QUIT DRINKING THE DAY HE FOUND OUT I HAD DRINKING PROBLEMS AND NEVER DRANK AGAIN TIL THE DAY HE PASSED! I SPIRILLED OUT OF CONTROLL FOR THE NEXT 25 YRS OF SHOOTING DOPE DRINKING SNORTING COCAINE DROPPING ACID TO NOT FEEL THE SHAME I
FELT I HAD BECOME TO MY CLOSE ONES! I TRIED TO GET SOBER BUT COULDNT GET PAST THE ABUSE PHYSICALLY,MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, AND THE SEXUAL ABUSE I HAD BEEN A VITCIM OF EARLY EARLY IN MY CHILDHOOD!
I TRUSTED FEMALES AND PUT THEM OVER MY CHILDREN UNTIL ONE DAY MY WIFE HAD TOLD ME THAT MY 4 YR OLD WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND WAS DYING AND I WENT TO SEE HER AND COULDNT FIND HER ON THE WAY BACK HOME I STATED DRINKING AND DRIVING I GOT PULLED OVER AND WAS SHOT TWICE IN THE CHEST AND IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE THE ONES WHO ARE HERE TO PROTECT AND SERVE
I WAS DEAD I DIED AND CAME BACK IN A COMA AT O.U FOR AWHILE AND MADE IT LEARNED HOW TO WALK AGAIN AND WAS RELEASED ONLY TO BE PUT IN A MOTEL BC MY FAM WAS SCARED OF ME AND ARRESTED A WEEK AFTER LEAVING THE HOSPITAL I HAVE BEEN LOCKED UP 5 TIMES I HAVE BEEN STABBED 3 TIMES ONCE BY ONE OF MY WIFES! I ONLY TO AWAKEN AFTER TRYING TO KILL MYSELF FOR THE FOURTH.
TIME TO FIND MY MOM CATHY AT MY BED BEGGING ME TO GO TO REHAB! I SAID YES AND I WENT AT OAKWOOD SPRINGS IN OCT OF 2017 AND BEEN SOBER SINCE WORKING A PROGRAM HAVING A SPONSOR AND THIS SUNDAY I GET BAPTIZED BY A GOD OF MY CALLING OS JESUS AND A PASTOR NAMED CODY! I LIVE AT A OXFORD HOUSE THAT MY FRIENDS FROM CHURCH GOT ME INTO I ATTEND WEEKLY RESTORATION GROUPS AND A.A. MEETINGS I HAVE BEGIN A SOBER JOURNEY TO WERE I HAVE MY KIDS AND BELIVE IT I HAVE GOTTEN TO HELP RAISE MY GRANDBABY PAXTYN!
I AM BLESSED BY SEVERAL FRIENDS AND FEW FAMILY MEMBERS LOKE MY MOM, AND A CHURCH FAMILY THAT HOLDS ME DEAR AS I HOLD THEM ! I AM SAYING THIS TO FORGIVE MY SELF AND TO FORGIVE ALL THOSE WHO I FELT HAVE CAUSED PAIN! ALSO I AM ASKING FORGIVENESS FROM ALL THAT I HAVE HURT OR AND LET DOWN! I WANNA SAY I LOVE YOU TOO MY DAUGHTER'S BAYLEE, SYDNEE, ABBIE, JACK, AND MY LIL ANGEL THAT PASSED AWAY IN 2007.
ALLIE SMITH! ALSO MY GRANDBABY PAXTYN I Check This Out LOVE U ALL AND WANT TO CONTINUE MY LOVE FOR JESUS AND YOU GIRLS WITH ALL THE NEW FRIENDS AND FAMILY I HAVE MADE! THANK YOU JACOB HANKINS! I LOVE U BROTHER!! AND CODY SYKES AND RYAN PASCOE AND CATHY SMITH!!
ALSO SORRY TO MY BLOOD BROTHERS FOR ALL THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSED FORGIVE ME AND I LOVE U IN JESUS NAME AMEN!"